2nd semester results were out and everyone did pretty well . But Deeps was struggling a bit in mathematics . In first 2 semester she got middling grades which was tarnishing her overall end result. I sensed that and as a good friend I wanted to lend her a hand in these rigid circumstances. I began training her in mathematics whenever we got time, in college canteen or at the temple in the college. But that seemed not sufficient because we used to get very little time after attending all the regular lectures. So we begin to extend a bit and used to leave college a little late. She also told in her house that there are some extra classes and as a result we were getting generous time on Saturdays and on weekday holidays. I liked it because this way I could spend extra time with her . All of it did not go well because Hitler sensed that something is not right. She asked Deeps what is going on and what is the exact explanation of you coming late from college and going to the college when there is no college? She had to put in the picture the truth, she could not lie any longer. She told the complete state of affairs that she needed help out for her studies. Next day she came to the college and dropped a bomb on me by saying that,
“This cannot go on to any further extent”
“Why?” I asked frantically.
“I had to tell my mom everything and she does not like it at all”
“So who will be coaching you from now on?” I asked curiously.
“What!! How??” I was petrified for an instance.
“My mom said that you can come home and teach”
I could not believe what I heard, Hitler approved a guy inside her house to coach her daughter, Brilliant!!!
Anyways I started going to Deep’s house to give her some lessons on mathematics, we used to study from morning till evening and then I used to go back to the hostel. I was finding it hard to tell her about my feelings for her because if she does not think the same then I will lose her forever. Whatever bond of friendship we have between us will not be the same.
I had to be very certain about this, so I chose to wait patiently for the right time. Teaching her in her house was fun for both of us but I guess Deep’s mother did not like it and was disappointed on her choice of allowing me to teach Deeps. On one fine day Deeps updated me that her mother is not cheerful about this whole set-up. She has just one hesitation, why the hell someone will come from 20 kms to their house to train their daughter at no cost!!! She was convinced that something was going on between us, she got this suspicion A LOT and yes she was spot on but only to some extent. I was accepting all this soreness with delight because I liked her and could have done anything for her but she regarded me as only a friend,
“Please do not come from tomorrow”, She requested me.
“Why what happened”
“My mom does not like you coming to our house”
“But she is the one who allowed me in!!” I was little agitated.
“I know that but she believes that something is happening between us”
“Oh come on, what do I look like? ”
“No, she said that she does not want to hear in future that I want to marry you”
I nearly cried but I controlled in front of her. I left her house to never come back again and while leaving my heart was sobbing piercingly. I cried in the bus after I took off from her house. From the day I realized what she means to me, from that day every single thing that pointed in the direction of You-can’t-marry-Deeps destroyed me but I had to keep faith and trust in what I believe or else I will lose her. I was still comfortable that she still does not like any one and no one is after her. Was the situation in fact like this or was I careless enough to fail to notice things ??
Something was making a horrific sound, what the hell is that!! I jumped out of my bed, I glanced around. It was my cell phone which was making a horrendous noise. Someone was calling me, what time is it!! It was 3 am!!
Who the in the god’s name is calling me at 3 AM!! I saw the number and it was Deep’s house number, I was surprised, what the hell !! Anyways I responded to the call,
“Hi, It’s me”, Deeps murmured
“What are you doing up at this time ?” I snapped
“I had a dream about Sammy”
Who the hell is Sammy ?? I wondered.
And all of a sudden I remembered that from past few days she is been chatting about a guy from our senior batch in the college and there is this guy who according to her is the most good-looking in the college. Soon I grasped the situation and I froze, I did not want this discussion to go on because I knew where this conversation could go. But I had to carry on,
“What happened”, I asked with a heavy heart.
“I think I like Sammy a lot, I think I will propose him but I am terrified that he will say no”, She said in a very gloomy tone.
Tears started dripping out of my eyes.
“Its ok Deeps, I am with you, don’t lose sleep on this, if you really like him then I swear that I will see that you guys get together”
She was calmed after my assurance and hung up the phone but I could experience that my entire life has hung up on me.